Why is it that compassion and love are always tardy? But apathy is always on time?
The more reports that come out about Cho's clear signs of weirdness from his behavior, writings, attitude, the more I wonder....those people that knew him, that knew about his writings, that had interacted with him and were detested by his behavior and attitude, those teachers that didn't want him in their classrooms, the family members that accepted his seemingly quiet demeanor....
....I wonder what they are truly thinking and feeling right now. "Could I have done something?"
I don't want to blame anyone, because many many years ago, I, along with other high school classmates thought the same thing when one of our classmates committed suicide. He was a friend of mine throughout elementary school, but we had gotten distant because I treated his obscure behavior as something I did not want to mess with or associate with. Just leave him alone, I thought. I mean, what could happen? Anything can happen.
On the flipside however, I was really bothered by Cho's video tapes. I'm glad NBC finally took them off the air. His actions do not deserve him airtime. And he made it seem like he was the only one in history who had problems. Yes it is obvious from his writings that he hated the wealthy upper class; that they apparently treated him terribly....I guess we will never truly know his motives....
Life is not easy and it is even harder when trekked alone. We all need help so we can bear our pains. Some people just quit on life, and some people keep struggling through it.
One thing that I think we can learn from this terrible tragedy is to be a little bit more compassionate with others. Not to be anyone's savior, but even for our own sake...does it hurt to show someone that you care even a little bit for them? Compassion is here now for the victims of the families (our prayers go out you) and our hearts have become a little softer, but it needs to be there all the time and on time.